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La Raison de Vivre [2/3]
Title: La Raison de Vivre
Series: 유령/Ghost
Characters: Park Ki Young, mentions of Kim Woo Hyun
Summary: After the confrontation with Jo Hyeon Min comes to an end, the team was anxious to keep Park Ki Young as part of their team member. Ki Young also wonders if he should continue on to live as Kim Woo Hyun.
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He flashed Woo Hyun's identification badge at the officers before entering the room. Even when Jo Hyeon Min now dead, it was still a relief to have the officers standing guard over Woo Hyun's father. Since there wasn't any guarantee that Jo Hyeon Min haven't send anyone to harm his family prior to their talk.
Ki Young took a chair and sat beside the bed. His father's condition looked like it's improving... that was a relief.
Ever since he lost his family and taken into the Kim family, Woo Hyun and his father were the only family he had left. But with Woo Hyun gone, he now only have his father and Seon Woo. He didn't want anything else to happen to either of them. He had enough of losing the people he cared a lot.
While he did consider leaving the force, he didn't plan to leave his father and Seon Woo. But it seemed... he didn't really have a say on that.
"Father... is it fine for me to remain like this? Everything's over now, we should be able to close the case. But is it right for me to remain in the force as Woo Hyun?" said Ki Young softly, mindful to make sure that he did closed the door when he came in. "Even if... being in the Cyber Team was the best thing that could happen for me."
He sighed. Since they were small, both he and Woo Hyun had keen interest in learning about computers. And since Woo Hyun's father was quite an influential policeman, both of them had aspired to be as great a cop like him. Because of that, a part of him used to be so ashamed of himself to not able to become a policeman... that he refused to show himself any more in front of Woo Hyun. It's not just because of the Sekang slush fund case, he didn't want to face Woo Hyun in case he ended up confiding to him about it.
Woo Hyun had always looked up highly to his father after all...
And also... since he kept re-imagining how things could have turned out, if he had done things differently. How things may end up happening differently, if he made a different choice in his life. If he had allowed Woo Hyun to arrest him at the terminal. If he had let Woo Hyun to do his own investigations. Or if he told Woo Hyun the truth much earlier. If he could set aside his own shame of being reduced to a mere hacker instead of a policeman; and perhaps worked together with Woo Hyun to investigate Safe Tech. Woo Hyun could have still be alive.
He could have been able to witness the many things he missed seeing from Woo Hyun's life. Woo Hyun's marriage, Seon Woo's birth... or how he could have coaxed Woo Hyun to confess his feelings to Kang Mi; he could have been there... still being an essential part in each other's lives.
Since there was never a moment in his life now that he hadn't wished that Woo Hyun was still alive. That his current reflection in the mirror was really the real Woo Hyun. That he didn't have to feel like he continued stealing the life that Woo Hyun could have still lived...
"When it comes to computer knowledge, I was better at it than Woo Hyun. But Woo Hyun had more experiences working as a policeman than me. And Woo Hyun... was better in making deductions and interpreting the criminal's next move. He's more observant as well..."
Ki Young thought about the investigation reports that Woo Hyun have written before Jo Hyeon Min managed to steal them away from him. Back then... Woo Hyun was made to investigate the old case involving the Sekang slush fund incident. And he somehow caught on the Safe Tech's beta version of the vaccine programme. When it took him a much longer time to figure it out. On how Safe Tech have any relation to Jo Hyeon Min's plans.
If Jo Hyeon Min didn't try to recover all of the remaining evidences of the vaccine programme being a hacking programme, he wouldn't have noticed it. If it had been Woo Hyun—even if he had lost his memories of the things he'd done prior to the explosion—Woo Hyun would have investigated Safe Tech much earlier himself. That it was suspicious for Safe Tech to rise rapidly due to the supposed DDoS attacks. Woo Hyun would have investigated the vaccine programme much earlier to find out the reasoning how Safe Tech managed to develop the programme to counter the threats much faster than the other companies.
In that sense, Woo Hyun was much better that him. Compared to him, he wouldn't have thought to try anticipate a criminal's moves—one, two steps ahead.
That was also true with Shin Hyo Jeong's case. Woo Hyun had trusted him way much than he credited him for. Why else would Woo Hyun still investigated the reason why the killer hadn't appear in the CCTV when they were already given the manipulated video showing him as Shin Hyo Jeong's killer? When he gave up in trying to find the explanation, Woo Hyun kept on it to prove that he was innocent—that there should be a reason why the killer could have so easily hide his presence. That should be how he found out that Jo Hyeon Min was the culprit, that Woo Hyun would come to realize that it wouldn't be so simple to try clear him of the suspicions of murder as long as Jo Hyeon Min was involved.
How... he could even compare himself to Woo Hyun?
"Am I able to live up to Woo Hyun's abilities as an officer? Could I be as good as he was?"
The things he had been able to do, he wouldn't be able to compare to what Woo Hyun did. While he had Kang Mi... Team Leader Kwon, Tae Gyun, Sang Woo; Woo Hyun had been doing everything alone. While trying to protect his important team-mates and trying to watch out for the spies he couldn't see; he could not imagine how much courage Woo Hyun would have to muster by himself in order to not falter.
So how could he just take it from Woo Hyun, of all the acknowledgements of the things Woo Hyun had done... acting as the real one?
"Woo Hyun... would be glad, to have you continue on in his place."
Ki Young snapped back from his musing, as he noticed that his father had woken up. He smiled weakly.
"Father? Sorry to disturb you at this time..." he said as Kim Seok Joon shook his head.
"Woo Hyun... would be happy if you could... continue being a policeman. He always regretted not being able to do anything for you before."
The older Kim sighed. "Woo Hyun's tendencies to do the double amount of work he's doing... was partially because he was a perfectionist as well as not wanting to leave any evidence unchecked. Another reason... because he wanted to compensate for you not being able to become an officer alongside him. Woo Hyun always wished that both of you had been able to work together as policemen."
Ki Young held his father's hand as he placed it to his cheeks. He always felt close to the older man, just as he would to his own real father. Also it didn't surprise him before at how easily the old man could recognize him for who he really was inside. The man who knew too well how close he had been with Woo Hyun.
"Especially for Seon Woo, I hope you can continue doing Woo Hyun's job in his place. I know... that this was a selfish request from an old man—"
"No, father! Don't say like that, I didn't really mind it..." cried Ki Young as the old man continued.
"Woo Hyun had always raised Seon Woo up to be able to take care of himself in case something happened to him while on duty, but I don't think the child could bear it if he finds out the truth now. It's okay if you want to tell him the truth after Seon Woo is a bit more older..."
Ki Young nodded his head, not wanting to let his father continue one talking. "I'll do that, father. You don't have to worry about that..." he said as he struggled with his own tears. "For now, I'll take care of Seon Woo like he's my own kid."
Since he owed that to Woo Hyun. For not being able protect him, to save him. Because of that, he should've at least take care of Woo Hyun's family.
Series: 유령/Ghost
Characters: Park Ki Young, mentions of Kim Woo Hyun
Summary: After the confrontation with Jo Hyeon Min comes to an end, the team was anxious to keep Park Ki Young as part of their team member. Ki Young also wonders if he should continue on to live as Kim Woo Hyun.
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He flashed Woo Hyun's identification badge at the officers before entering the room. Even when Jo Hyeon Min now dead, it was still a relief to have the officers standing guard over Woo Hyun's father. Since there wasn't any guarantee that Jo Hyeon Min haven't send anyone to harm his family prior to their talk.
Ki Young took a chair and sat beside the bed. His father's condition looked like it's improving... that was a relief.
Ever since he lost his family and taken into the Kim family, Woo Hyun and his father were the only family he had left. But with Woo Hyun gone, he now only have his father and Seon Woo. He didn't want anything else to happen to either of them. He had enough of losing the people he cared a lot.
While he did consider leaving the force, he didn't plan to leave his father and Seon Woo. But it seemed... he didn't really have a say on that.
"Father... is it fine for me to remain like this? Everything's over now, we should be able to close the case. But is it right for me to remain in the force as Woo Hyun?" said Ki Young softly, mindful to make sure that he did closed the door when he came in. "Even if... being in the Cyber Team was the best thing that could happen for me."
He sighed. Since they were small, both he and Woo Hyun had keen interest in learning about computers. And since Woo Hyun's father was quite an influential policeman, both of them had aspired to be as great a cop like him. Because of that, a part of him used to be so ashamed of himself to not able to become a policeman... that he refused to show himself any more in front of Woo Hyun. It's not just because of the Sekang slush fund case, he didn't want to face Woo Hyun in case he ended up confiding to him about it.
Woo Hyun had always looked up highly to his father after all...
And also... since he kept re-imagining how things could have turned out, if he had done things differently. How things may end up happening differently, if he made a different choice in his life. If he had allowed Woo Hyun to arrest him at the terminal. If he had let Woo Hyun to do his own investigations. Or if he told Woo Hyun the truth much earlier. If he could set aside his own shame of being reduced to a mere hacker instead of a policeman; and perhaps worked together with Woo Hyun to investigate Safe Tech. Woo Hyun could have still be alive.
He could have been able to witness the many things he missed seeing from Woo Hyun's life. Woo Hyun's marriage, Seon Woo's birth... or how he could have coaxed Woo Hyun to confess his feelings to Kang Mi; he could have been there... still being an essential part in each other's lives.
Since there was never a moment in his life now that he hadn't wished that Woo Hyun was still alive. That his current reflection in the mirror was really the real Woo Hyun. That he didn't have to feel like he continued stealing the life that Woo Hyun could have still lived...
"When it comes to computer knowledge, I was better at it than Woo Hyun. But Woo Hyun had more experiences working as a policeman than me. And Woo Hyun... was better in making deductions and interpreting the criminal's next move. He's more observant as well..."
Ki Young thought about the investigation reports that Woo Hyun have written before Jo Hyeon Min managed to steal them away from him. Back then... Woo Hyun was made to investigate the old case involving the Sekang slush fund incident. And he somehow caught on the Safe Tech's beta version of the vaccine programme. When it took him a much longer time to figure it out. On how Safe Tech have any relation to Jo Hyeon Min's plans.
If Jo Hyeon Min didn't try to recover all of the remaining evidences of the vaccine programme being a hacking programme, he wouldn't have noticed it. If it had been Woo Hyun—even if he had lost his memories of the things he'd done prior to the explosion—Woo Hyun would have investigated Safe Tech much earlier himself. That it was suspicious for Safe Tech to rise rapidly due to the supposed DDoS attacks. Woo Hyun would have investigated the vaccine programme much earlier to find out the reasoning how Safe Tech managed to develop the programme to counter the threats much faster than the other companies.
In that sense, Woo Hyun was much better that him. Compared to him, he wouldn't have thought to try anticipate a criminal's moves—one, two steps ahead.
That was also true with Shin Hyo Jeong's case. Woo Hyun had trusted him way much than he credited him for. Why else would Woo Hyun still investigated the reason why the killer hadn't appear in the CCTV when they were already given the manipulated video showing him as Shin Hyo Jeong's killer? When he gave up in trying to find the explanation, Woo Hyun kept on it to prove that he was innocent—that there should be a reason why the killer could have so easily hide his presence. That should be how he found out that Jo Hyeon Min was the culprit, that Woo Hyun would come to realize that it wouldn't be so simple to try clear him of the suspicions of murder as long as Jo Hyeon Min was involved.
How... he could even compare himself to Woo Hyun?
"Am I able to live up to Woo Hyun's abilities as an officer? Could I be as good as he was?"
The things he had been able to do, he wouldn't be able to compare to what Woo Hyun did. While he had Kang Mi... Team Leader Kwon, Tae Gyun, Sang Woo; Woo Hyun had been doing everything alone. While trying to protect his important team-mates and trying to watch out for the spies he couldn't see; he could not imagine how much courage Woo Hyun would have to muster by himself in order to not falter.
So how could he just take it from Woo Hyun, of all the acknowledgements of the things Woo Hyun had done... acting as the real one?
"Woo Hyun... would be glad, to have you continue on in his place."
Ki Young snapped back from his musing, as he noticed that his father had woken up. He smiled weakly.
"Father? Sorry to disturb you at this time..." he said as Kim Seok Joon shook his head.
"Woo Hyun... would be happy if you could... continue being a policeman. He always regretted not being able to do anything for you before."
The older Kim sighed. "Woo Hyun's tendencies to do the double amount of work he's doing... was partially because he was a perfectionist as well as not wanting to leave any evidence unchecked. Another reason... because he wanted to compensate for you not being able to become an officer alongside him. Woo Hyun always wished that both of you had been able to work together as policemen."
Ki Young held his father's hand as he placed it to his cheeks. He always felt close to the older man, just as he would to his own real father. Also it didn't surprise him before at how easily the old man could recognize him for who he really was inside. The man who knew too well how close he had been with Woo Hyun.
"Especially for Seon Woo, I hope you can continue doing Woo Hyun's job in his place. I know... that this was a selfish request from an old man—"
"No, father! Don't say like that, I didn't really mind it..." cried Ki Young as the old man continued.
"Woo Hyun had always raised Seon Woo up to be able to take care of himself in case something happened to him while on duty, but I don't think the child could bear it if he finds out the truth now. It's okay if you want to tell him the truth after Seon Woo is a bit more older..."
Ki Young nodded his head, not wanting to let his father continue one talking. "I'll do that, father. You don't have to worry about that..." he said as he struggled with his own tears. "For now, I'll take care of Seon Woo like he's my own kid."
Since he owed that to Woo Hyun. For not being able protect him, to save him. Because of that, he should've at least take care of Woo Hyun's family.