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The Formula of Love [9/?]
Title: The Formula of Love
Series: ガリレオ/Galileo
Characters: Utsumi Kaoru, Yukawa Manabu
Summary: She'd waited almost six years without much result. Another year wouldn't have made any difference. But still, one can't help wondering...
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Yukawa-sensei... what was it that makes you happy?
Yukawa looked up towards her as Utsumi shrugged. "I remember you saying that you loved being able to think. That you enjoyed having been able to do a lot of thinking in order to solve any kinds of difficult problems. That said... would it be presumptive of me to assume that you actually enjoyed helping out in the police investigations? In solving some of the more tricky cases, that is... despite how you often say that it interferes with your work a lot?"
He shrugged. "Perhaps?"
Utsumi nodded as she accepted that as a cue to keep on talking. "Then, what else is it that make you, Professor Yukawa Manabu... happy? You said before that you don't think that dating is less fun than thinking, but I don't think you've even seriously dated anyone before. Despite all of the female attention—I'm sure you know what I meant—that you should get every day, everywhere that you go." She paused, before giving Yukawa a sharp glance.
"But, in light of the new information that I just got earlier... I had to wonder if all those female attention on you have ever made you happy. Or... if you don't even notice all those things but, you're actually taking pleasure in knowing how your very presence affected me a lot."
Yukawa grinned as Utsumi glared at him angrily. She frowned.
"Come to think of it, in all of the six years we've been working together... I wonder how you've actually reacted to my presence on your side. Have to say this didn't cross my mind before since I've always assumed that you've been completely oblivious to everything—but you've definitely not!" Utsumi fumed at him. "Yukawa-sensei! You said you've started liking me from as early as that case of an out-of-body experience, but does that mean... you also have been aware of my own state of emotions since then? Did you? If you did... how could you still act so indifferent—wow, sensei... you're so good at hiding your emotions, whoa!"
The man didn't answer as Utsumi bit her lips.
"What actually... cause us to feel happy? Or mad or sad or anything? Are emotions something not defined by logics? Is it something that we just made up... or was there a scientific explanation as to why we feel emotions. What do you think, sensei? And please be honest about it this time!"
Not waiting for him to answer, Utsumi stared at him grimly. "I'm sure you're aware of the existence of brain chemicals or neurotransmitters... eh, Yukawa-sensei?"
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Utsumi put her notebook back inside her jacket pocket. "Now that we've got those scientific explanations settled—Yukawa! Would you still think emotions are illogical? Were you truly indifferent to my feelings all these times?", she asked again before shaking her head to herself, suddenly remembering something. "No, that's not true..."
She looked up towards him. "You were aware of my feelings, weren't you? When I was devastated after finally knowing the truth about Kanzaki-san's fate... and the truth about the poltergeist—when I cried because I couldn't tell Yayoi-san what truly happened; those things you did that time... you were trying to cheer me up, right? When I got mad at you for refusing to help me clear Hachi's name... did you came to that barge to make it up to me? All those times when you—?"
Utsumi remembered how Yukawa came to check on her almost two years ago after she got hurt pretty badly. She recalled how especially concerned Yukawa was at that time, even when she tried to pretend that she was fine. Also, the way he had reacted in alarm, days before... when she asked him over that particular consultation. But even more, Utsumi recalled another important memory... a few more years earlier.
That night. Christmas Eve. The night when Kijima Seishiro, former professor of Teito University and Yukawa's senior; tricked her to come over and strapped her onto an overlarge time bomb.
"Professor, please run... I don't want you to die, too!"
"I don't want you to die either..."
A lone tear... started to streak down her cheek. "Yukawa... how long... would you have not tell me that you loved me, if all of this did not happen? How long would you keep this knowledge away from me? If I haven't gone to Oklahoma... if I haven't—"
Utsumi started to stagger as Yukawa hurriedly stood up and kept her steady on her feet. She looked up at him, eyes welling in tears and looking like almost about to burst into tears. She curled her fingers into a fist before slamming them onto Yukawa's chest.
"Yukawa-sensei... you're a mean person. Do you know that?" she cried as Yukawa awkwardly tried to wrap his arms around her.
"Sorry..." Was all that he could say.
Series: ガリレオ/Galileo
Characters: Utsumi Kaoru, Yukawa Manabu
Summary: She'd waited almost six years without much result. Another year wouldn't have made any difference. But still, one can't help wondering...
------------------
Yukawa-sensei... what was it that makes you happy?
Yukawa looked up towards her as Utsumi shrugged. "I remember you saying that you loved being able to think. That you enjoyed having been able to do a lot of thinking in order to solve any kinds of difficult problems. That said... would it be presumptive of me to assume that you actually enjoyed helping out in the police investigations? In solving some of the more tricky cases, that is... despite how you often say that it interferes with your work a lot?"
He shrugged. "Perhaps?"
Utsumi nodded as she accepted that as a cue to keep on talking. "Then, what else is it that make you, Professor Yukawa Manabu... happy? You said before that you don't think that dating is less fun than thinking, but I don't think you've even seriously dated anyone before. Despite all of the female attention—I'm sure you know what I meant—that you should get every day, everywhere that you go." She paused, before giving Yukawa a sharp glance.
"But, in light of the new information that I just got earlier... I had to wonder if all those female attention on you have ever made you happy. Or... if you don't even notice all those things but, you're actually taking pleasure in knowing how your very presence affected me a lot."
Yukawa grinned as Utsumi glared at him angrily. She frowned.
"Come to think of it, in all of the six years we've been working together... I wonder how you've actually reacted to my presence on your side. Have to say this didn't cross my mind before since I've always assumed that you've been completely oblivious to everything—but you've definitely not!" Utsumi fumed at him. "Yukawa-sensei! You said you've started liking me from as early as that case of an out-of-body experience, but does that mean... you also have been aware of my own state of emotions since then? Did you? If you did... how could you still act so indifferent—wow, sensei... you're so good at hiding your emotions, whoa!"
The man didn't answer as Utsumi bit her lips.
"What actually... cause us to feel happy? Or mad or sad or anything? Are emotions something not defined by logics? Is it something that we just made up... or was there a scientific explanation as to why we feel emotions. What do you think, sensei? And please be honest about it this time!"
Not waiting for him to answer, Utsumi stared at him grimly. "I'm sure you're aware of the existence of brain chemicals or neurotransmitters... eh, Yukawa-sensei?"
xxx
Utsumi put her notebook back inside her jacket pocket. "Now that we've got those scientific explanations settled—Yukawa! Would you still think emotions are illogical? Were you truly indifferent to my feelings all these times?", she asked again before shaking her head to herself, suddenly remembering something. "No, that's not true..."
She looked up towards him. "You were aware of my feelings, weren't you? When I was devastated after finally knowing the truth about Kanzaki-san's fate... and the truth about the poltergeist—when I cried because I couldn't tell Yayoi-san what truly happened; those things you did that time... you were trying to cheer me up, right? When I got mad at you for refusing to help me clear Hachi's name... did you came to that barge to make it up to me? All those times when you—?"
Utsumi remembered how Yukawa came to check on her almost two years ago after she got hurt pretty badly. She recalled how especially concerned Yukawa was at that time, even when she tried to pretend that she was fine. Also, the way he had reacted in alarm, days before... when she asked him over that particular consultation. But even more, Utsumi recalled another important memory... a few more years earlier.
That night. Christmas Eve. The night when Kijima Seishiro, former professor of Teito University and Yukawa's senior; tricked her to come over and strapped her onto an overlarge time bomb.
"Professor, please run... I don't want you to die, too!"
"I don't want you to die either..."
A lone tear... started to streak down her cheek. "Yukawa... how long... would you have not tell me that you loved me, if all of this did not happen? How long would you keep this knowledge away from me? If I haven't gone to Oklahoma... if I haven't—"
Utsumi started to stagger as Yukawa hurriedly stood up and kept her steady on her feet. She looked up at him, eyes welling in tears and looking like almost about to burst into tears. She curled her fingers into a fist before slamming them onto Yukawa's chest.
"Yukawa-sensei... you're a mean person. Do you know that?" she cried as Yukawa awkwardly tried to wrap his arms around her.
"Sorry..." Was all that he could say.