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Atonement [5/11]
Incidentally, I managed to identify the song used on a hidarime fanvid posted on ![[info]](https://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif)
kanjani8 before. I find the lyric most fitting with the emotion I'm aiming at.
Title: Atonement
Chapter: 5 - Lost
Characters: Tanaka Ainosuke, Tanaka Yumehito and mostly everyone still alive
Fandom: Hidarime Tantei EYE
Rating: G
Summary: AU. The new life they had did not seem so bad. Yumehito had mostly recovered his health and living as a totally new person. It was something that Ainosuke had always dreamed of. But a new case that was reminiscent of their painful past threatened to destroy the small piece of life they had. Could this be... an atonement?
A/N: Because someone had mentioned that his actions might be a bit crazy. If you want to read it, it's here.
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The loud knocking on the door jerked him awake at once as Yumehito immediately sat up from the bed. He blinked in confusion at the unfamiliar surrounding before recognizing the room he had shared with Ainosuke. He glanced down on the bed as he watched Ainosuke still sleeping beside him. He bit his lips as he ran his hand to brush aside the stray bangs covering Ainosuke's face. Did the kid carry him to bed earlier? He didn't remember going to bed before, he had been reading some of the notes about their case that he insisted Kato to give him to read. After all... he sort of missed half of the meeting. He must have fallen asleep then.
Well... at least his head felt clearer now.
"Ainosuke-kun... Yumehito-kun... are you awake? I've prepared dinner... do you want to join me?"
Yume smiled.
"We'll be out in a moment!" he said cheerfully, the way the former him used to do.
That seemed to satisfy the woman as he heard her walking away from their door. He sighed before the movement beside him made him turn his attention towards Ainosuke.
"What?"
"What would brother do now?"
He raised his eyebrow at the kid as he shrugged.
"Well... considering that I'm not dead, still alive... and living with you; I guess I'd better get used to this life. Bitching about it won't change a thing... and I don't do pointless things."
"I don't mean about tha—!"
Yume placed a hand on his lips to stop him before flicking his three fingers in a shooting gesture.
"Daijoubu."
He smiled, though it did not reach his eyes.
"I've already ran out of people to call idiots to anyway. I'm not really happy having to wake up again as me, but that couldn't be helped. Life's a bitch anyway but I'll get over that, again. Considering you guys had done a lot to keep me rooted here... I guess I shouldn't do anything to ruin what you guys have done—"
"What really happen at work today? There must be a reason as to how you suddenly regain your memories back. What—"
"Nothing happened. I just had one really annoying headache and tried to stop that sensation so I hit my head against a wall. Well, what do you know? I end up regaining all of my memories. The end."
He started to get up and wash his face as Ainosuke stopped him.
"Did this had anything to do with the kidnapping last time?"
Ainosuke could have sworn his brother had frozen at his statement but when he turned, there was nothing in his features that indicated anything had bothered him.
"I saw it... in my left eye."
Yumehito gave him a dull look as he sighed.
"That eye started to annoy me now. It really felt like a breach in privacy. Don't make me feel like dragging you to the hospital to take my cornea back from that pretty eye of yours and make my own sight complete again. Come on, we don't want to make Miruku-san wait for us even longer."
Yume grabbed a clean cloth and wet it before wiping Ainosuke's face with it; before dragging his brother out of the room to eat with their generous landlady, not letting a word slip from Ainosuke's lips for any kinds of complaints that he would want to say.
xxx
Yumehito twitched his nose at the list of suspects as well as the personal data that had been gathered about Kamata. He had to agree with Kato... that particular part about the man having some kind of a monetary problem, did seemed to be related. Made him wonder about the relation Kamata had with the kidnappers, considering that the kidnappers knew where they lived. And probably the schools his kids were studying at as well. Wonder if there was anyone witnessing the boys being taken away?
Or did Kamata somehow gained a grudge from someone for something he'd done in the past? That... sounded probable.
Guess he had to wait for the other officers to return with their own reports on the investigation, as he was stuck here doing paperwork. Couldn't be helped, a minor setback of him trying to break his head and regaining his memories...
He glanced around the office as he watched the rest of the staffs doing their work. He snorted to himself.
What did Kato have done actually to get him back into this place? All these people had known him as Sakisaka before, but now all of them had treated him as if they had known that his real name had been Tanaka Yumehito from the very beginning. Weird... wonder what would Fukuchi think from down under?
Yumehito sighed.
Somehow now, it seemed as if a fresh breeze had swept away the mess that used to be inside his head. He still remembered everything though; just that now he was able to view the events in his past in a slightly different view. It sounded outrageous, yes... but it didn't seem to be out of place. Did that event at that time drove his mind mad? It felt strange... looking back at his own life like this...
A slap on his shoulder set himself on an edge before Yume glanced up towards Kato in surprise.
"Wha—what did you do that for?"
Kato shrugged.
"Because you seemed to be daydreaming just now—"
"Eh, Kato..."
"Hmm?"
"Did you think... the me in the past was insane?"
Kato blinked in surprise at the unexpected question.
"Eh? No... why on earth would you think about that?"
Yume shook his head hastily as he turned back towards the reports.
"Never mind, it was nothing..."
xxx
Perhaps he worried too much. It must have been a shock to him as well. To have to regain his own memories like that, after what they have gone through in the past; must have been hard. Those few months, the two siblings had treated each other as enemies... and now they had lived together as if the past rift had not happened between them. Certainly, it could take time to cope with it... right?
But this morning, aside from the casual greetings... brother had been distant. It was strangely awkward. Even before... he had never acted so distant to him like this. Even when brother had appeared before him as Sakisaka. Somehow... this scared him. Same as yesterday when his brother had told him that it was better if he died that time.
Somehow... what was it that had troubled his brother? It must have been the same thing that had driven him to become the genius crime planner. Yet, unlike before... brother did nothing to mask his true emotion from him to hide the real truth inside his heart. The brother now seemed even scarier than the one he went against months ago. Perhaps the same person who had stared coldly towards one of their fallen kidnapper, before he dropped to his knees and started stabbing the man repeatedly until no more blood could be drawn.
Ainosuke wondered about his brother. For some reason this time... he couldn't sense any anger emanating from his brother aside from yesterday. It was more like... there was this intense sorrow that he felt from him. He wanted to hold his brother close, to ease that sorrow... but brother seemed to not want that. Then how... how could he help his brother?
This time... is there a way for him to save his brother?
"Ainosuke... is there something wrong with you?"
Ainosuke turned towards the voice, startled as Kaito Masaki smiled at him. He hastily wiped away the tears that slipped from his eyes as he shrugged.
"N-nothing... it's nothing."
"You seemed distracted all the time in class today."
Ainosuke tried acting surprised at that statement.
"Really... I hadn't noticed."
"Are you unwell? Class almost over anyway, so it should be okay if you want to go to the infirmary now..."
"I'm all right. Don't worry."
xxx
"Honestly... I don't even know what he's thinking..."
Ainosuke paused as he recognized the voice. What was Kato-san doing... at school at this time of the day?
"Kato-san!" Ainosuke called out the moment he entered the room. Sayama-sensei and Kato-san turned their attentions towards him before smiling in greeting.
"Kato-san, what are you doing here?" he asked again.
Kato shrugged.
"I'm off early... and suddenly felt like talking with you guys. What about you? Your class should have finished... in about fifteen minutes still!" he asked back as Ainosuke shrugged.
"I don't feel well..."
Kato seemed surprised.
"You too? I thought something was weird... did anything happened at home between you two yesterday?"
Ainosuke blinked at him before realizing that Kato meant his brother. There wasn't anything much... happening yesterday—eh, what?
"Kato-san! Did my brother... do anything peculiar today?"
Kato shook his head.
"Nope. He was a bit frustrated though... having stuck doing paperwork all day—well, we can't have him walking around on a case with that bandage on his head. But aside of that... he was fine. Though Ainosuke... there's something that's been bugging me all day today."
"What is it?"
"Your brother... seemed a bit distracted. He was asking me a peculiar question today. He asked if I find him before... as crazy. I... not sure of what to answer to that but I have to admit that he used to be a bit eccentric. You know... when he used to be Sakisaka. I can't say much... but what do you think?"
Ainosuke stuttered as he was taken aback. Brother thought he was—come to think there was some instance that seemed to indicate—but he never seemed the type to go insane. He had often shove that thought away... because it didn't seem possible that brother could go crazy—and he seemed rational all those times in his evil ways... it's not possible, eh?
But then again...
"Betrayers should all... die?"
That time... if there was a point that he would say that his brother was crazy, that time should be it. Because that time... when brother had pointed the gun on his head, he had that mad gleam on his eyes. Though he must have known that the gun was rigged already, but if he had not been forced to throw that gun away...
"Ainosuke?"
Ainosuke turned towards Sayama-sensei and Kato as he shook his head.
"It's nothing..."
xxx
Ainosuke threw his bag into a corner as he glanced towards the empty room. His brother was not yet home. He tried calling his phone, it seemed he had already gone off from the station but did not head home right away. He hadn't answered his calls. Ainosuke wondered about the things Kato had told him earlier.
If those times... brother was really—could it be that even brother hadn't realized it?
Then was it true? What he had thought before... the reason why his left eye had shown him those images and visions—it's because it was a plea from his brother...?
Ainosuke closed his eyes as he tried to suppress the tears from falling again.
"Niichan... I'm so sorry. It's all my fault. It really was... my fault."
kanjani8 before. I find the lyric most fitting with the emotion I'm aiming at.Title: Atonement
Chapter: 5 - Lost
Characters: Tanaka Ainosuke, Tanaka Yumehito and mostly everyone still alive
Fandom: Hidarime Tantei EYE
Rating: G
Summary: AU. The new life they had did not seem so bad. Yumehito had mostly recovered his health and living as a totally new person. It was something that Ainosuke had always dreamed of. But a new case that was reminiscent of their painful past threatened to destroy the small piece of life they had. Could this be... an atonement?
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The loud knocking on the door jerked him awake at once as Yumehito immediately sat up from the bed. He blinked in confusion at the unfamiliar surrounding before recognizing the room he had shared with Ainosuke. He glanced down on the bed as he watched Ainosuke still sleeping beside him. He bit his lips as he ran his hand to brush aside the stray bangs covering Ainosuke's face. Did the kid carry him to bed earlier? He didn't remember going to bed before, he had been reading some of the notes about their case that he insisted Kato to give him to read. After all... he sort of missed half of the meeting. He must have fallen asleep then.
Well... at least his head felt clearer now.
"Ainosuke-kun... Yumehito-kun... are you awake? I've prepared dinner... do you want to join me?"
Yume smiled.
"We'll be out in a moment!" he said cheerfully, the way the former him used to do.
That seemed to satisfy the woman as he heard her walking away from their door. He sighed before the movement beside him made him turn his attention towards Ainosuke.
"What?"
"What would brother do now?"
He raised his eyebrow at the kid as he shrugged.
"Well... considering that I'm not dead, still alive... and living with you; I guess I'd better get used to this life. Bitching about it won't change a thing... and I don't do pointless things."
"I don't mean about tha—!"
Yume placed a hand on his lips to stop him before flicking his three fingers in a shooting gesture.
"Daijoubu."
He smiled, though it did not reach his eyes.
"I've already ran out of people to call idiots to anyway. I'm not really happy having to wake up again as me, but that couldn't be helped. Life's a bitch anyway but I'll get over that, again. Considering you guys had done a lot to keep me rooted here... I guess I shouldn't do anything to ruin what you guys have done—"
"What really happen at work today? There must be a reason as to how you suddenly regain your memories back. What—"
"Nothing happened. I just had one really annoying headache and tried to stop that sensation so I hit my head against a wall. Well, what do you know? I end up regaining all of my memories. The end."
He started to get up and wash his face as Ainosuke stopped him.
"Did this had anything to do with the kidnapping last time?"
Ainosuke could have sworn his brother had frozen at his statement but when he turned, there was nothing in his features that indicated anything had bothered him.
"I saw it... in my left eye."
Yumehito gave him a dull look as he sighed.
"That eye started to annoy me now. It really felt like a breach in privacy. Don't make me feel like dragging you to the hospital to take my cornea back from that pretty eye of yours and make my own sight complete again. Come on, we don't want to make Miruku-san wait for us even longer."
Yume grabbed a clean cloth and wet it before wiping Ainosuke's face with it; before dragging his brother out of the room to eat with their generous landlady, not letting a word slip from Ainosuke's lips for any kinds of complaints that he would want to say.
xxx
Yumehito twitched his nose at the list of suspects as well as the personal data that had been gathered about Kamata. He had to agree with Kato... that particular part about the man having some kind of a monetary problem, did seemed to be related. Made him wonder about the relation Kamata had with the kidnappers, considering that the kidnappers knew where they lived. And probably the schools his kids were studying at as well. Wonder if there was anyone witnessing the boys being taken away?
Or did Kamata somehow gained a grudge from someone for something he'd done in the past? That... sounded probable.
Guess he had to wait for the other officers to return with their own reports on the investigation, as he was stuck here doing paperwork. Couldn't be helped, a minor setback of him trying to break his head and regaining his memories...
He glanced around the office as he watched the rest of the staffs doing their work. He snorted to himself.
What did Kato have done actually to get him back into this place? All these people had known him as Sakisaka before, but now all of them had treated him as if they had known that his real name had been Tanaka Yumehito from the very beginning. Weird... wonder what would Fukuchi think from down under?
Yumehito sighed.
Somehow now, it seemed as if a fresh breeze had swept away the mess that used to be inside his head. He still remembered everything though; just that now he was able to view the events in his past in a slightly different view. It sounded outrageous, yes... but it didn't seem to be out of place. Did that event at that time drove his mind mad? It felt strange... looking back at his own life like this...
A slap on his shoulder set himself on an edge before Yume glanced up towards Kato in surprise.
"Wha—what did you do that for?"
Kato shrugged.
"Because you seemed to be daydreaming just now—"
"Eh, Kato..."
"Hmm?"
"Did you think... the me in the past was insane?"
Kato blinked in surprise at the unexpected question.
"Eh? No... why on earth would you think about that?"
Yume shook his head hastily as he turned back towards the reports.
"Never mind, it was nothing..."
xxx
Perhaps he worried too much. It must have been a shock to him as well. To have to regain his own memories like that, after what they have gone through in the past; must have been hard. Those few months, the two siblings had treated each other as enemies... and now they had lived together as if the past rift had not happened between them. Certainly, it could take time to cope with it... right?
But this morning, aside from the casual greetings... brother had been distant. It was strangely awkward. Even before... he had never acted so distant to him like this. Even when brother had appeared before him as Sakisaka. Somehow... this scared him. Same as yesterday when his brother had told him that it was better if he died that time.
Somehow... what was it that had troubled his brother? It must have been the same thing that had driven him to become the genius crime planner. Yet, unlike before... brother did nothing to mask his true emotion from him to hide the real truth inside his heart. The brother now seemed even scarier than the one he went against months ago. Perhaps the same person who had stared coldly towards one of their fallen kidnapper, before he dropped to his knees and started stabbing the man repeatedly until no more blood could be drawn.
Ainosuke wondered about his brother. For some reason this time... he couldn't sense any anger emanating from his brother aside from yesterday. It was more like... there was this intense sorrow that he felt from him. He wanted to hold his brother close, to ease that sorrow... but brother seemed to not want that. Then how... how could he help his brother?
This time... is there a way for him to save his brother?
"Ainosuke... is there something wrong with you?"
Ainosuke turned towards the voice, startled as Kaito Masaki smiled at him. He hastily wiped away the tears that slipped from his eyes as he shrugged.
"N-nothing... it's nothing."
"You seemed distracted all the time in class today."
Ainosuke tried acting surprised at that statement.
"Really... I hadn't noticed."
"Are you unwell? Class almost over anyway, so it should be okay if you want to go to the infirmary now..."
"I'm all right. Don't worry."
xxx
"Honestly... I don't even know what he's thinking..."
Ainosuke paused as he recognized the voice. What was Kato-san doing... at school at this time of the day?
"Kato-san!" Ainosuke called out the moment he entered the room. Sayama-sensei and Kato-san turned their attentions towards him before smiling in greeting.
"Kato-san, what are you doing here?" he asked again.
Kato shrugged.
"I'm off early... and suddenly felt like talking with you guys. What about you? Your class should have finished... in about fifteen minutes still!" he asked back as Ainosuke shrugged.
"I don't feel well..."
Kato seemed surprised.
"You too? I thought something was weird... did anything happened at home between you two yesterday?"
Ainosuke blinked at him before realizing that Kato meant his brother. There wasn't anything much... happening yesterday—eh, what?
"Kato-san! Did my brother... do anything peculiar today?"
Kato shook his head.
"Nope. He was a bit frustrated though... having stuck doing paperwork all day—well, we can't have him walking around on a case with that bandage on his head. But aside of that... he was fine. Though Ainosuke... there's something that's been bugging me all day today."
"What is it?"
"Your brother... seemed a bit distracted. He was asking me a peculiar question today. He asked if I find him before... as crazy. I... not sure of what to answer to that but I have to admit that he used to be a bit eccentric. You know... when he used to be Sakisaka. I can't say much... but what do you think?"
Ainosuke stuttered as he was taken aback. Brother thought he was—come to think there was some instance that seemed to indicate—but he never seemed the type to go insane. He had often shove that thought away... because it didn't seem possible that brother could go crazy—and he seemed rational all those times in his evil ways... it's not possible, eh?
But then again...
"Betrayers should all... die?"
That time... if there was a point that he would say that his brother was crazy, that time should be it. Because that time... when brother had pointed the gun on his head, he had that mad gleam on his eyes. Though he must have known that the gun was rigged already, but if he had not been forced to throw that gun away...
"Ainosuke?"
Ainosuke turned towards Sayama-sensei and Kato as he shook his head.
"It's nothing..."
xxx
Ainosuke threw his bag into a corner as he glanced towards the empty room. His brother was not yet home. He tried calling his phone, it seemed he had already gone off from the station but did not head home right away. He hadn't answered his calls. Ainosuke wondered about the things Kato had told him earlier.
If those times... brother was really—could it be that even brother hadn't realized it?
Then was it true? What he had thought before... the reason why his left eye had shown him those images and visions—it's because it was a plea from his brother...?
Ainosuke closed his eyes as he tried to suppress the tears from falling again.
"Niichan... I'm so sorry. It's all my fault. It really was... my fault."
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Because the vid and the song inspired me a lot while writing some of the chapters. XD
Since Yume was not really that easy to play or write, and I sometimes slip with his chara... so I'm really glad to have some kinda inspiration for his emotions.