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Family Matters [1/4]
Title: Family Matters
Series: Star Wars, Legends
Characters: Luke Skywalker, Leia Organa, Han Solo
Summary: The mission on the forest moon of Endor suddenly gets complicated.
A/N: Slightly influenced by Ryder Wyndham's novelization as well as the Rebel Force series by Alex Wheeler. And might also be influenced by Hong Jac Ga's Star Wars webtoon. And for some reason I just HAD to write this scene.
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The mission to Endor seemed simple enough. A bit crazy... yes, but that's almost part of her every day life now. It was necessary. Because the shield around the unfinished Death Star needed to be shut down before they could lay a hand to destroying that abomination.
A lot of things happened once they landed on the forest moon. Leia never thought her life could become even more complicated the moment she followed Luke out of the Ewok Chief Chirpa's hut. Because then, Luke suddenly started asking her about her real mother and saying something about sensing Vader...
xxx
“He’s my father.”
She couldn't believe what she was hearing. But she knew that Luke would never lie about things like this, yet...
“There’s more. It won’t be easy for you to hear it, but you must. If I don’t make it back, you’re the only hope for the Alliance.”
For a long time she had served the Alliance, she had given her everything to fight for the cause. To the point that; yes, by now... she could be considered as one of the important leaders in the Alliance. Yet, she never really considered her existence could be far more important than it already was. Not the way she considered Luke's importance to the Alliance could be...
“The Force is strong in my family. My father has it… I have it… and my sister has it.”
She couldn't help feeling nervous the moment Luke mentioned the word 'sister'. Who... what... why did Luke suddenly mentioned this to her unless...
“Yes. It’s you, Leia.”
It stunned her. Luke... was her brother? It seemed hard to believe yet, she knew it was true. She couldn't explain it, but hearing those words seemed right. But they... weren't they the same age? Were they... twins? Then all these years since she'd known Luke—ever since the Death Star—that certain closeness that she felt about Luke that she could never explain...or the anxiety she often felt whenever Luke was far away from her side for too long; was this the reason?
"I know. Somehow... I've always known," she could hear herself say. The words flowed out too naturally.
"And you know why I have to face him—"
There were many times when she fought the urge inside herself to want to keep Luke safe at all times, but she never thought about the reason why she often thought about it. The thought abouts wanting to keep Luke safe was always present in her mind, because she kept feeling that no one else but her could keep Luke safe. It dawned to her now why she felt that way.
She didn't want to lose Luke, now more than ever. To sent him to face such a danger by himself; how could she let that be? Right away she told Luke what her heart wished. She wished Luke could change his mind. Run. Don't face Vader alone...
But of course, Luke wouldn't listen to her.
"No, you don't! You've always been strong..."
There were times when she wished she wouldn't need to be strong. Her heart ached. How could she try to be strong now while her only real sibling was going to...
Why?
"But why must you confront him?"
“Because…there is good in him. I’ve felt it. He won’t turn me over to the Emperor. I can save him, I can turn him back to the good side. I have to try.”
Could he do it? Save their father? She could sense Luke's emotion even more clearly after realizing that he was her brother; but those emotions... were much more pained. She could feel what Luke felt; he really wanted to save their father, she could feel his longing... yearning for a father he had always missed. She knew that feeling too, she understood it very well. Both of them have lost the people they called family to the Empire. Both of them had known the sorrow of losing their loved ones. So if there was still someone that they could take back, wouldn't they want to get those people back?
But it's Vader...!
She barely noticed it as Luke kissed her cheek. Leia tried to keep holding on to Luke's hands but he pulled away from her. Walking away from her.
And as much as she wanted to run over and stop him, she couldn't. Because something inside her also told her that this was meant to happen. Luke needed to go. She turned away from Luke, trying to not think about him leaving. Trying to not focus too much, at how she could hear Luke's footsteps growing fainter and fainter... until she couldn't hear it any longer.
But the more she tried to stop thinking about Luke, the more she started thinking about him. Luke was her brother. Strange that despite her finding that out for the first time, that knowledge was not that unfamiliar. As if she always known about it. Like she said earlier. That feeling that she had for Luke... that was different to how she felt for Han; it was this. It was the reason why she often felt so troubled whenever something happened to Luke; and why she always felt so happy whenever Luke was by her side.
Luke's going to see Vader...
Will I be able to see him again after this?
She felt her body tremble at the thought that she might not be able to see her brother again.
"Hey, what's goin' on?"
Leia snapped to attention as she turned to see Han standing before her. He smiled his crooked smile. "Come on, tell me. What's goin' on?"
"Nothing. I just wanted to be alone for a while." She could hear herself speak, despite not having the conscious thought about saying it.
"But you could tell Luke, is that who you could tell?" snapped Han, as Leia struggled to want to answer. But she couldn't! If she told him now, Han would try to stop Luke... and Luke wouldn't want that.
Still...
"Hold me," she said in the end.
xxx
Several times before, she used to wish that she could have the same powers as Luke had. Because to her, it felt like it could give her the same ability and strength as the Force had given Luke. Not that she thought herself as weaker than him without such powers, but she used to want to be able to have the same confidence as Luke usually have... that allowed him to create miracles.
She never thought that it could really be possible, for her to have that power too. Inside of her. Yet...
She used to think that all these times she had relied on her own gut instincts that she could do what is right; what is necessary at the time. She used to think that she was only limited to her own self to do what she had to do, without having any divine presence to guide her. But perhaps... all these times, she too have been guided by the Force. It brought her to her current allies. It brought her to Luke. Luke.
Her brother...
"Hey..."
Leia blinked. She turned as Han's concerned face came to her view. She also noticed that the sky was getting brighter. Dawn was approaching.
"Been wanting to ask this earlier but Luke's still hasn't returned. What did both of you talked about last night anyway? Did Luke forgot about our mission?"
That heavy weight inside her heart started making its presence known again. Well, she might as well tell him. It wouldn't make a difference now. Leia shook her head. "No. Luke left... because he didn't want to jeopardize our mission."
"WHAT?" She could see that Han was angry. She couldn't blame him. "Was this because the kid said he could sense Vader before? Was that why? Where did Luke go... I gonna—"
Leia grabbed him by the arm.
"There's no use. You won't be able to catch up to him, Vader should have picked him up by now."
Han's eyes widened. "Vader? Why...?"
"Luke's heading to the Death Star."
There, she said it. "There's someone he needed to save over there, that's why he left." Leia bit her lips as she turned away to wipe away her tears. "And now we might as well get ready for our own mission. There's still a lot to prepare..."
This time it was Han that grabbed her arm. She could see the look of betrayal in his eyes. "What did you mean by that? Why didn't you tell me this earlier? I could have helped—"
"No, you won't! You're still needed to lead the mission here!"
"Then you're saying we should abandon Luke? You? Leia... I thought you were better than that! You—" Han stopped himself as he finally noticed the pained look Leia was wearing. He immediate dropped the act as he held Leia's hand gently. Trying to give her some kind of reassurance.
"I'm sorry. It must be hard for you to let him go by himself." Han sighed as he turned his glance towards the sky. "That kid ain't stupid. He should be able to take care of himself up there... he had that Force of his, right?" he said, trying to cast aside his own doubts.
Leia nodded, almost listlessly. "I hope so too..."
Series: Star Wars, Legends
Characters: Luke Skywalker, Leia Organa, Han Solo
Summary: The mission on the forest moon of Endor suddenly gets complicated.
A/N: Slightly influenced by Ryder Wyndham's novelization as well as the Rebel Force series by Alex Wheeler. And might also be influenced by Hong Jac Ga's Star Wars webtoon. And for some reason I just HAD to write this scene.
--------------------
The mission to Endor seemed simple enough. A bit crazy... yes, but that's almost part of her every day life now. It was necessary. Because the shield around the unfinished Death Star needed to be shut down before they could lay a hand to destroying that abomination.
A lot of things happened once they landed on the forest moon. Leia never thought her life could become even more complicated the moment she followed Luke out of the Ewok Chief Chirpa's hut. Because then, Luke suddenly started asking her about her real mother and saying something about sensing Vader...
xxx
“He’s my father.”
She couldn't believe what she was hearing. But she knew that Luke would never lie about things like this, yet...
“There’s more. It won’t be easy for you to hear it, but you must. If I don’t make it back, you’re the only hope for the Alliance.”
For a long time she had served the Alliance, she had given her everything to fight for the cause. To the point that; yes, by now... she could be considered as one of the important leaders in the Alliance. Yet, she never really considered her existence could be far more important than it already was. Not the way she considered Luke's importance to the Alliance could be...
“The Force is strong in my family. My father has it… I have it… and my sister has it.”
She couldn't help feeling nervous the moment Luke mentioned the word 'sister'. Who... what... why did Luke suddenly mentioned this to her unless...
“Yes. It’s you, Leia.”
It stunned her. Luke... was her brother? It seemed hard to believe yet, she knew it was true. She couldn't explain it, but hearing those words seemed right. But they... weren't they the same age? Were they... twins? Then all these years since she'd known Luke—ever since the Death Star—that certain closeness that she felt about Luke that she could never explain...or the anxiety she often felt whenever Luke was far away from her side for too long; was this the reason?
"I know. Somehow... I've always known," she could hear herself say. The words flowed out too naturally.
"And you know why I have to face him—"
There were many times when she fought the urge inside herself to want to keep Luke safe at all times, but she never thought about the reason why she often thought about it. The thought abouts wanting to keep Luke safe was always present in her mind, because she kept feeling that no one else but her could keep Luke safe. It dawned to her now why she felt that way.
She didn't want to lose Luke, now more than ever. To sent him to face such a danger by himself; how could she let that be? Right away she told Luke what her heart wished. She wished Luke could change his mind. Run. Don't face Vader alone...
But of course, Luke wouldn't listen to her.
"No, you don't! You've always been strong..."
There were times when she wished she wouldn't need to be strong. Her heart ached. How could she try to be strong now while her only real sibling was going to...
Why?
"But why must you confront him?"
“Because…there is good in him. I’ve felt it. He won’t turn me over to the Emperor. I can save him, I can turn him back to the good side. I have to try.”
Could he do it? Save their father? She could sense Luke's emotion even more clearly after realizing that he was her brother; but those emotions... were much more pained. She could feel what Luke felt; he really wanted to save their father, she could feel his longing... yearning for a father he had always missed. She knew that feeling too, she understood it very well. Both of them have lost the people they called family to the Empire. Both of them had known the sorrow of losing their loved ones. So if there was still someone that they could take back, wouldn't they want to get those people back?
But it's Vader...!
She barely noticed it as Luke kissed her cheek. Leia tried to keep holding on to Luke's hands but he pulled away from her. Walking away from her.
And as much as she wanted to run over and stop him, she couldn't. Because something inside her also told her that this was meant to happen. Luke needed to go. She turned away from Luke, trying to not think about him leaving. Trying to not focus too much, at how she could hear Luke's footsteps growing fainter and fainter... until she couldn't hear it any longer.
But the more she tried to stop thinking about Luke, the more she started thinking about him. Luke was her brother. Strange that despite her finding that out for the first time, that knowledge was not that unfamiliar. As if she always known about it. Like she said earlier. That feeling that she had for Luke... that was different to how she felt for Han; it was this. It was the reason why she often felt so troubled whenever something happened to Luke; and why she always felt so happy whenever Luke was by her side.
Luke's going to see Vader...
Will I be able to see him again after this?
She felt her body tremble at the thought that she might not be able to see her brother again.
"Hey, what's goin' on?"
Leia snapped to attention as she turned to see Han standing before her. He smiled his crooked smile. "Come on, tell me. What's goin' on?"
"Nothing. I just wanted to be alone for a while." She could hear herself speak, despite not having the conscious thought about saying it.
"But you could tell Luke, is that who you could tell?" snapped Han, as Leia struggled to want to answer. But she couldn't! If she told him now, Han would try to stop Luke... and Luke wouldn't want that.
Still...
"Hold me," she said in the end.
xxx
Several times before, she used to wish that she could have the same powers as Luke had. Because to her, it felt like it could give her the same ability and strength as the Force had given Luke. Not that she thought herself as weaker than him without such powers, but she used to want to be able to have the same confidence as Luke usually have... that allowed him to create miracles.
She never thought that it could really be possible, for her to have that power too. Inside of her. Yet...
She used to think that all these times she had relied on her own gut instincts that she could do what is right; what is necessary at the time. She used to think that she was only limited to her own self to do what she had to do, without having any divine presence to guide her. But perhaps... all these times, she too have been guided by the Force. It brought her to her current allies. It brought her to Luke. Luke.
Her brother...
"Hey..."
Leia blinked. She turned as Han's concerned face came to her view. She also noticed that the sky was getting brighter. Dawn was approaching.
"Been wanting to ask this earlier but Luke's still hasn't returned. What did both of you talked about last night anyway? Did Luke forgot about our mission?"
That heavy weight inside her heart started making its presence known again. Well, she might as well tell him. It wouldn't make a difference now. Leia shook her head. "No. Luke left... because he didn't want to jeopardize our mission."
"WHAT?" She could see that Han was angry. She couldn't blame him. "Was this because the kid said he could sense Vader before? Was that why? Where did Luke go... I gonna—"
Leia grabbed him by the arm.
"There's no use. You won't be able to catch up to him, Vader should have picked him up by now."
Han's eyes widened. "Vader? Why...?"
"Luke's heading to the Death Star."
There, she said it. "There's someone he needed to save over there, that's why he left." Leia bit her lips as she turned away to wipe away her tears. "And now we might as well get ready for our own mission. There's still a lot to prepare..."
This time it was Han that grabbed her arm. She could see the look of betrayal in his eyes. "What did you mean by that? Why didn't you tell me this earlier? I could have helped—"
"No, you won't! You're still needed to lead the mission here!"
"Then you're saying we should abandon Luke? You? Leia... I thought you were better than that! You—" Han stopped himself as he finally noticed the pained look Leia was wearing. He immediate dropped the act as he held Leia's hand gently. Trying to give her some kind of reassurance.
"I'm sorry. It must be hard for you to let him go by himself." Han sighed as he turned his glance towards the sky. "That kid ain't stupid. He should be able to take care of himself up there... he had that Force of his, right?" he said, trying to cast aside his own doubts.
Leia nodded, almost listlessly. "I hope so too..."