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Title: Guilt
Series: Kamen Rider Gaim
Characters: Kureshima Mitsuzane, mentions of Kureshima Takatora
Summary: Surely someone like him should be aware of it.
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Surely he knows that ghosts don't exist. Surely he should know that the person he kept seeing in front of him was just a very convincing-looking hallucination. Surely an intelligent person as he was, he should have realized all these points and not engage in useless banters with the hallucination.
Yet...
Possibly a part of him was admonishing himself for doing the unthinkable. The part of him that used to be that innocent-looking ‘Micchi’ that danced happily with his friends without a care in the world. The part of him that really loved his brother and would do anything to make his brother happy. The 'old' him... before bitterness of being pushed away and being abandoned changed him. That part of him must be very angry at himself.
'That' part of him must have hated himself so much for hurting the person that mattered the world to him. 'That' part of him must have loathed himself so much that it recreated an image of his older brother to admonish him in a form that most scared him. The form of his brother that was the strongest inside his mind. The image of his brother in his strictest, cruelest and most ruthless. Most menacing and threatening.
All... in an attempt to change his mind to do the right thing. Surely it must be that…
Right thing? What IS the right thing to do?
Whether or not he was realizing this… it was hard to tell. Probably he was ignoring all this—yes, he was aware… he was aware—but he was pushing it far, far back.
Was this what people call… conscience?
Or possibly a part of him tried to deny the truth he tried so hard not to face.
That he killed his own brother. He killed his own brother. He killed the brother that was so close to him as much as a part of his soul!
Possibly a part of him needed to keep the image of his brother close. Even if it meant being abused from the inside of his mind. Because he needed that harsh voice. That menacing presence that have shaped all of his life.
Even if that presence pushed him off from the edge of sanity.
Could that be guilt?
It can’t be guilt!
He didn’t do all this just to be restrained by this shackle called guilt! He did it to be free!
Yet possibly he had also wanted to retain the illusion that his brother was still by his side. Possibly that was also reason why Kureshima Mitsuzane continued shouting towards the taunting image of his brother.
Series: Kamen Rider Gaim
Characters: Kureshima Mitsuzane, mentions of Kureshima Takatora
Summary: Surely someone like him should be aware of it.
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Surely he knows that ghosts don't exist. Surely he should know that the person he kept seeing in front of him was just a very convincing-looking hallucination. Surely an intelligent person as he was, he should have realized all these points and not engage in useless banters with the hallucination.
Yet...
Possibly a part of him was admonishing himself for doing the unthinkable. The part of him that used to be that innocent-looking ‘Micchi’ that danced happily with his friends without a care in the world. The part of him that really loved his brother and would do anything to make his brother happy. The 'old' him... before bitterness of being pushed away and being abandoned changed him. That part of him must be very angry at himself.
'That' part of him must have hated himself so much for hurting the person that mattered the world to him. 'That' part of him must have loathed himself so much that it recreated an image of his older brother to admonish him in a form that most scared him. The form of his brother that was the strongest inside his mind. The image of his brother in his strictest, cruelest and most ruthless. Most menacing and threatening.
All... in an attempt to change his mind to do the right thing. Surely it must be that…
Right thing? What IS the right thing to do?
Whether or not he was realizing this… it was hard to tell. Probably he was ignoring all this—yes, he was aware… he was aware—but he was pushing it far, far back.
Was this what people call… conscience?
Or possibly a part of him tried to deny the truth he tried so hard not to face.
That he killed his own brother. He killed his own brother. He killed the brother that was so close to him as much as a part of his soul!
Possibly a part of him needed to keep the image of his brother close. Even if it meant being abused from the inside of his mind. Because he needed that harsh voice. That menacing presence that have shaped all of his life.
Even if that presence pushed him off from the edge of sanity.
Could that be guilt?
It can’t be guilt!
He didn’t do all this just to be restrained by this shackle called guilt! He did it to be free!
Yet possibly he had also wanted to retain the illusion that his brother was still by his side. Possibly that was also reason why Kureshima Mitsuzane continued shouting towards the taunting image of his brother.
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