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Title: Divided by Zero
Series: 너를 기억해 | Hello Monster
Characters: Lee Hyeon, mentions of Cha Jian,
Summary: Suppose... you can say, it's a calculation mishap?
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"Who are you?"
How did it started? Beginning from the time when she started running after him? But this feeling... despite the annoyance he initially felt—it seemed.... familiar? Why is it so? Have she chased after him before... to give him this familiar feeling? Was that why he asked her who she was?
But...
Does it really matter?
xxx
When he had no where to go, the first reasoning was to go after her. It's just logic. He argued that she must have known him somehow before, so she should help him out. But then he ended up finding out anyway. Her connection to him. At first it was just a wild guess and then it was an unexpected coincidence. Yet, even after knowing who she was... it doesn't stop him from being drawn towards her again.
Why?
He tried to push her away—oh yes, he did—in an attempt to distance himself from other unrelated issues that may distract him from his main purpose. Yet for some reason he could not tear himself away from her. Because the more he stayed by her side, the more he knew about her. The more he needed her.
Someone who could understand him.
It seemed so strange. How he felt so comfortable with her. That despite how many times he liked to tease her, no matter how many times she kept coming towards him; he didn't find it to be an annoyance. That he found himself comfortable of sharing his thoughts with her, to even allow her to get so close. That he felt a smidgen of pain in his heart at the thought of her thinking ill of him.
When did all of that started?
From zero? Or was there an actual value that existed before without him knowing? Because if it did started from zero, when did the value started to add up? Since when?
xxx
"You are not a monster. If you think you are, then you're wrong."
It seemed so strange to feel delightful at hearing her say those words. Considering the fact it could be a lie. Yet her eyes don't lie and his heart desperately wanted to cling to her every words. Because to have her not to think of him in a bad way, it was important to him.
To have someone not think of him as a monster.
xxx
"Find Cha Jian!"
To think that he could be so much in distress over a few words uttered. It was irrational, to think he would be unable to keep his emotions in control.
Because she was strong, she always was. She could take care of herself until he comes to get her. So what was this fear?
Compared to the incident before, this was the worst. Because the sense of danger this time was higher. Because the chance of Cha Jian dying this time was higher. This fear, it's been a long time since he felt this fear. The last time he ever felt this much distress, was during the night Lee Junyeong came to their house and killed his father. To think he would feel this way again..
Then again, his time had started to move again now... because of her.
Yet, the relief he felt once Jian was safe again. How could it be possible to have such extreme fluctuation of emotions in such a short period of time? Still, that led him to return to that initial question.
Who are you, Cha Jian?
What value are you... to me?
Series: 너를 기억해 | Hello Monster
Characters: Lee Hyeon, mentions of Cha Jian,
Summary: Suppose... you can say, it's a calculation mishap?
---------
"Who are you?"
How did it started? Beginning from the time when she started running after him? But this feeling... despite the annoyance he initially felt—it seemed.... familiar? Why is it so? Have she chased after him before... to give him this familiar feeling? Was that why he asked her who she was?
But...
Does it really matter?
xxx
When he had no where to go, the first reasoning was to go after her. It's just logic. He argued that she must have known him somehow before, so she should help him out. But then he ended up finding out anyway. Her connection to him. At first it was just a wild guess and then it was an unexpected coincidence. Yet, even after knowing who she was... it doesn't stop him from being drawn towards her again.
Why?
He tried to push her away—oh yes, he did—in an attempt to distance himself from other unrelated issues that may distract him from his main purpose. Yet for some reason he could not tear himself away from her. Because the more he stayed by her side, the more he knew about her. The more he needed her.
Someone who could understand him.
It seemed so strange. How he felt so comfortable with her. That despite how many times he liked to tease her, no matter how many times she kept coming towards him; he didn't find it to be an annoyance. That he found himself comfortable of sharing his thoughts with her, to even allow her to get so close. That he felt a smidgen of pain in his heart at the thought of her thinking ill of him.
When did all of that started?
From zero? Or was there an actual value that existed before without him knowing? Because if it did started from zero, when did the value started to add up? Since when?
xxx
"You are not a monster. If you think you are, then you're wrong."
It seemed so strange to feel delightful at hearing her say those words. Considering the fact it could be a lie. Yet her eyes don't lie and his heart desperately wanted to cling to her every words. Because to have her not to think of him in a bad way, it was important to him.
To have someone not think of him as a monster.
xxx
"Find Cha Jian!"
To think that he could be so much in distress over a few words uttered. It was irrational, to think he would be unable to keep his emotions in control.
Because she was strong, she always was. She could take care of herself until he comes to get her. So what was this fear?
Compared to the incident before, this was the worst. Because the sense of danger this time was higher. Because the chance of Cha Jian dying this time was higher. This fear, it's been a long time since he felt this fear. The last time he ever felt this much distress, was during the night Lee Junyeong came to their house and killed his father. To think he would feel this way again..
Then again, his time had started to move again now... because of her.
Yet, the relief he felt once Jian was safe again. How could it be possible to have such extreme fluctuation of emotions in such a short period of time? Still, that led him to return to that initial question.
Who are you, Cha Jian?
What value are you... to me?
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