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Title: What If
Series: 너를 기억해 / Hello Monster
Characters: Cha Jian, Lee Hyeon
Summary: How could things have worked out if their lives had been different?
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"Sometimes I felt like I should have killed that guy," said Jian.
Hyeon glanced at her worriedly. "Jian, you...!"
Jian shrugged. "It was frustrating. To know that he's still out there... and wondering if any other cases that I encountered these days could relate to his recent or past crimes."
"It was even worse this past year. Since I was stuck between trying to anticipate if you might just suddenly pop back and tell me where you've been... or if that person was watching me in the shadows."
Hyeon frowned. "Did he?" he asked as Jian shook her head.
"Who knows? I might just be overly paranoid. But I do occasionally felt as if I was being watched somewhere."
Hyeon stared at her silently. He wanted to say something to her... but then he pushed away the thought.
She sighed. "Though I suppose killing that guy in cold blood won't do any good. Because once you did it once, there's a possibility that you might do it again." Jian shrugged. "While sometimes in my line of work, one couldn't avoid accidentally killing the criminal we pursued or killing someone in self-defence... it'll still be bad if you started feeling indifferent to it. On killing someone, regardless if they're good or bad."
"But sometimes I felt, it would have been better to be able to know for sure that he's dead. Not alive somewhere... watching."
Hyeon nodded, as he sat beside her on the couch. "I understand..." He sighed.
"Actually, I too... tried to kill him. I thought I wouldn't stoop as low as he had..."
"Did Lee Junyeong..." Jian started to say, "... hurt Min? Back then? When we found you at that house? Was that it?" He nodded again. "Did that guy... Was Min..."
Jian didn't finish that line as Hyeon turned his eyes from her, refusing to answer.
"Was it good that I couldn't kill that person? If I did, Jian... you—"
Both of them went quiet as neither of them dared to look at each other. The only sound remained was the sound of the ceiling fan revolving above them. After a while, Jian let out a soft groan.
"I really... hate that guy. So easy... how he could turn all of us into monsters like him."
Hyeon bit his lips.
"Yeah."
Series: 너를 기억해 / Hello Monster
Characters: Cha Jian, Lee Hyeon
Summary: How could things have worked out if their lives had been different?
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"Sometimes I felt like I should have killed that guy," said Jian.
Hyeon glanced at her worriedly. "Jian, you...!"
Jian shrugged. "It was frustrating. To know that he's still out there... and wondering if any other cases that I encountered these days could relate to his recent or past crimes."
"It was even worse this past year. Since I was stuck between trying to anticipate if you might just suddenly pop back and tell me where you've been... or if that person was watching me in the shadows."
Hyeon frowned. "Did he?" he asked as Jian shook her head.
"Who knows? I might just be overly paranoid. But I do occasionally felt as if I was being watched somewhere."
Hyeon stared at her silently. He wanted to say something to her... but then he pushed away the thought.
She sighed. "Though I suppose killing that guy in cold blood won't do any good. Because once you did it once, there's a possibility that you might do it again." Jian shrugged. "While sometimes in my line of work, one couldn't avoid accidentally killing the criminal we pursued or killing someone in self-defence... it'll still be bad if you started feeling indifferent to it. On killing someone, regardless if they're good or bad."
"But sometimes I felt, it would have been better to be able to know for sure that he's dead. Not alive somewhere... watching."
Hyeon nodded, as he sat beside her on the couch. "I understand..." He sighed.
"Actually, I too... tried to kill him. I thought I wouldn't stoop as low as he had..."
"Did Lee Junyeong..." Jian started to say, "... hurt Min? Back then? When we found you at that house? Was that it?" He nodded again. "Did that guy... Was Min..."
Jian didn't finish that line as Hyeon turned his eyes from her, refusing to answer.
"Was it good that I couldn't kill that person? If I did, Jian... you—"
Both of them went quiet as neither of them dared to look at each other. The only sound remained was the sound of the ceiling fan revolving above them. After a while, Jian let out a soft groan.
"I really... hate that guy. So easy... how he could turn all of us into monsters like him."
Hyeon bit his lips.
"Yeah."
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