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Title: Mia Madre
Series:빈센조/Vincenzo
Characters: Vincenzo Cassano/Park Joohyeong, Oh Gyeongja
Summary: Seeing how much Cha-young was struggling by herself after the death of Lawyer Hong made him contemplate about his own situation.
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"Why don't you go visit her and ask her yourself next time?"
"Do you really not want to visit her?"
"I won't force you... and I won't ask you to forgive your mother so lightly. But you shouldn't let your yearning turn into regret."
He didn't want to admit that Lawyer Hong was right about him. Because Lawyer Hong shouldn't be right. How could he... still bore any kind of feelings towards his mother? There's no way that he would ever miss the mother who left him behind all those years ago.
He cried. He remembered crying. He could still remember how much he'd cried before for being left behind, thinking that by doing so his mother would come back for him. But his mother never returned to take him back. Since then he'd stopped waiting for his mother to come back for him. Nor wish to even think about her ever again.
(But that was a lie. Because five years ago, he did look for her. Because somehow Fabio had found out that his mother was involved in an incident back in Korea so his papa told him to go back to his birth country to find out what's going on.)
"All of the criticism children give their parents will come back as regrets."
"Don't do something you'll regret. Regret in the most painful thing in life."
Unlike his mother, Lawyer Hong was different. And Lawyer Hong's relationship with Cha-young was completely different compared to his relationship with his mother. Or so he thought.
But seeing Cha-young being so in pain has made him think a lot. Because of something that happened in the past, Cha-young had distanced herself from her father. Yet even when the two of them had constantly pit themselves against each other in the court of law, in her own unique way; Hong Cha-young had still worried and care about her father. And having experienced himself of the extent of Lawyer Hong's stubbornness, he could understand Cha-young's own feelings about that.
That aside, he was aware of how much Lawyer Hong cared about his daughter.
It still didn't change the fact that Cha-young used to be standing on the wrong side of the law (not that he had the rights to condemn her about it, considering the things he used to do) and had been the main reason that bugged Lawyer Hong's mind. Yet despite all of that, he could see how much both father and daughter cared about each other. It was why he tried to get her to make up with her father...
Then that incident had to happen.
It was painful to watch her suffering silently. He could barely recognize the current Cha-young compared to the one he first met. And seeing her so regretful for not being able to resolve her differences with her father made him think about himself.
To which he was reminded of the things Lawyer Hong used to say to him.
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The prison guard escorted her into the room before sitting at the corner desk to give them some space. Vincenzo cleared his throat as he looked up to face his mother.
"Lawyer Hong... has passed away a few weeks ago."
His mother nodded her head. "Yes, I heard."
"Won't you change your mind about the retrial? You can't let yourself take all the punishment when you've done nothing wrong to earn it. Don't you want to live a more comfortable life than this?"
"Don't you worry about that! I have no intention to pursue things like justice and fairness. There was no point after all—"
He bit his lips.
"How could you say things like that—Don't you have anyone else who would've cared about you? Don't you want to go back to them and spend a longer time with them instead of staying in this place by yourself? Don't you want to go back to your family?"
"I don't... have people like that. And you don't have to worry about me. I suppose you want to continue Lawyer Hong's wishes but I have no intention of—"
"You're wrong! You do have someone who—! I am—!" He wanted to say that she HAD someone that she needed to go back to. He wanted to tell her that she still has a son to spend her time with. He wanted to tell her that the son whom she had left behind so long ago was now sitting right in front of her! And THIS son of hers was still worried about her and frustrated at the fact that his mother was treated so unjustly by the country's justice corrupt system!
He wanted to tell her all that... yet for some reason, he could not get the words out of his mouth. For some reason, his mouth couldn't quite let him form the words that he wanted dreadfully to say to his mother. Yet he continued to struggle...
"I am... your—!"
xxx
The sudden bump onto the cold floor was enough to drag him back into wakefulness. And as his mind was slowly trying to take in his surroundings, the sounds of the annoying pigeons from the other side of the window reminded him of where he currently was in.
He was back inside his bedroom. Or more like..., he was now on the floor of his bedroom because he had just fallen out of bed. He was not in fact, at the women's correctional centre where his mom was locked up in. He hasn't really gone to see his mother like how Lawyer Hong would've wished for him to do.
Vincenzo placed an arm over his eyes as he silently chastised himself over the dream he just had.
How embarrassing.
To think that deep inside his heart he still desperately missed and yearned to be with his mother. He snorted.
"Don't let my yearning be turned into regrets, huh?"
Series:빈센조/Vincenzo
Characters: Vincenzo Cassano/Park Joohyeong, Oh Gyeongja
Summary: Seeing how much Cha-young was struggling by herself after the death of Lawyer Hong made him contemplate about his own situation.
---------------------------------------------------
"Why don't you go visit her and ask her yourself next time?"
"Do you really not want to visit her?"
"I won't force you... and I won't ask you to forgive your mother so lightly. But you shouldn't let your yearning turn into regret."
He didn't want to admit that Lawyer Hong was right about him. Because Lawyer Hong shouldn't be right. How could he... still bore any kind of feelings towards his mother? There's no way that he would ever miss the mother who left him behind all those years ago.
He cried. He remembered crying. He could still remember how much he'd cried before for being left behind, thinking that by doing so his mother would come back for him. But his mother never returned to take him back. Since then he'd stopped waiting for his mother to come back for him. Nor wish to even think about her ever again.
(But that was a lie. Because five years ago, he did look for her. Because somehow Fabio had found out that his mother was involved in an incident back in Korea so his papa told him to go back to his birth country to find out what's going on.)
"All of the criticism children give their parents will come back as regrets."
"Don't do something you'll regret. Regret in the most painful thing in life."
Unlike his mother, Lawyer Hong was different. And Lawyer Hong's relationship with Cha-young was completely different compared to his relationship with his mother. Or so he thought.
But seeing Cha-young being so in pain has made him think a lot. Because of something that happened in the past, Cha-young had distanced herself from her father. Yet even when the two of them had constantly pit themselves against each other in the court of law, in her own unique way; Hong Cha-young had still worried and care about her father. And having experienced himself of the extent of Lawyer Hong's stubbornness, he could understand Cha-young's own feelings about that.
That aside, he was aware of how much Lawyer Hong cared about his daughter.
It still didn't change the fact that Cha-young used to be standing on the wrong side of the law (not that he had the rights to condemn her about it, considering the things he used to do) and had been the main reason that bugged Lawyer Hong's mind. Yet despite all of that, he could see how much both father and daughter cared about each other. It was why he tried to get her to make up with her father...
Then that incident had to happen.
It was painful to watch her suffering silently. He could barely recognize the current Cha-young compared to the one he first met. And seeing her so regretful for not being able to resolve her differences with her father made him think about himself.
To which he was reminded of the things Lawyer Hong used to say to him.
xxx
The prison guard escorted her into the room before sitting at the corner desk to give them some space. Vincenzo cleared his throat as he looked up to face his mother.
"Lawyer Hong... has passed away a few weeks ago."
His mother nodded her head. "Yes, I heard."
"Won't you change your mind about the retrial? You can't let yourself take all the punishment when you've done nothing wrong to earn it. Don't you want to live a more comfortable life than this?"
"Don't you worry about that! I have no intention to pursue things like justice and fairness. There was no point after all—"
He bit his lips.
"How could you say things like that—Don't you have anyone else who would've cared about you? Don't you want to go back to them and spend a longer time with them instead of staying in this place by yourself? Don't you want to go back to your family?"
"I don't... have people like that. And you don't have to worry about me. I suppose you want to continue Lawyer Hong's wishes but I have no intention of—"
"You're wrong! You do have someone who—! I am—!" He wanted to say that she HAD someone that she needed to go back to. He wanted to tell her that she still has a son to spend her time with. He wanted to tell her that the son whom she had left behind so long ago was now sitting right in front of her! And THIS son of hers was still worried about her and frustrated at the fact that his mother was treated so unjustly by the country's justice corrupt system!
He wanted to tell her all that... yet for some reason, he could not get the words out of his mouth. For some reason, his mouth couldn't quite let him form the words that he wanted dreadfully to say to his mother. Yet he continued to struggle...
"I am... your—!"
xxx
The sudden bump onto the cold floor was enough to drag him back into wakefulness. And as his mind was slowly trying to take in his surroundings, the sounds of the annoying pigeons from the other side of the window reminded him of where he currently was in.
He was back inside his bedroom. Or more like..., he was now on the floor of his bedroom because he had just fallen out of bed. He was not in fact, at the women's correctional centre where his mom was locked up in. He hasn't really gone to see his mother like how Lawyer Hong would've wished for him to do.
Vincenzo placed an arm over his eyes as he silently chastised himself over the dream he just had.
How embarrassing.
To think that deep inside his heart he still desperately missed and yearned to be with his mother. He snorted.
"Don't let my yearning be turned into regrets, huh?"
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